My daughter Katie was my only child.<\/p>\n
Every year on my birthday, no matter where the Army had stationed her, something arrived at my front door.<\/p>\n
Sometimes it was flowers.<\/p>\n
Sometimes a book she thought I’d like.<\/p>\n
Once, it was a ridiculous coffee mug that said, World’s Okayest Dad.<\/em><\/p>\n I’d tease her about it.<\/p>\n She’d laugh and say, \u201cIt’s the thought that counts.\u201d<\/p>\n But the packages always had one thing in common.<\/p>\n They were written in her handwriting.<\/p>\n So when a package arrived one week before my birthday, I recognized her handwriting immediately.<\/p>\n Dad.<\/strong><\/p>\n I smiled.<\/p>\n I remember holding it against my chest and thinking about what she’d sent this time.<\/p>\n Then, a week later, two officers came to my door.<\/p>\n I knew before they spoke.<\/p>\n Katie was gone.<\/p>\n She had been killed overseas.<\/p>\n My knees gave out.<\/p>\n I don’t remember much about what happened afterward.<\/p>\n I remember the officers standing in my living room.<\/p>\n I remember one of them saying how brave she had been.<\/p>\n And I remember looking at the unopened package sitting on the table.<\/p>\n The last thing my daughter had ever sent me.<\/p>\n I couldn’t open it.<\/p>\n For almost a year, it stayed in her old bedroom.<\/p>\n I couldn’t bring myself to touch it.<\/p>\n Some part of me believed that as long as it remained unopened, Katie was still there somehow.<\/p>\n Still waiting for me to discover what she’d chosen.<\/p>\n Yesterday would have been her birthday.<\/p>\n She would have been thirty-two.<\/p>\n I finally carried the package downstairs.<\/p>\n I sat at the kitchen table where she’d done her homework as a child.<\/p>\n My hands were shaking as I carefully tore away the paper.<\/p>\n Inside was a small wooden box.<\/p>\n I opened it.<\/p>\n There was a photograph.<\/p>\n It showed Katie as a little girl sitting on my shoulders at the beach.<\/p>\n I laughed through my tears.<\/p>\n Then I noticed something behind the photograph.<\/p>\n A folded letter.<\/p>\n My name was written across the front.<\/p>\n I opened it.<\/p>\n The first line made my heart stop.<\/p>\n \u201cDad, if you’re reading this, something probably happened that I didn’t have the courage to tell you about.\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n I couldn’t continue.<\/p>\n I wiped my eyes and kept reading.<\/p>\n Katie explained that several months earlier, she’d learned that her unit was being deployed to an area where the situation had become increasingly dangerous.<\/p>\n She didn’t know whether she’d come home.<\/p>\n But she didn’t want me to live every day terrified.<\/p>\n So she made the decision to prepare something for me.<\/p>\n Then came the part that broke me.<\/p>\n She wrote:<\/p>\n \u201cI know you’ll want to remember me as I was. But please don’t spend the rest of your life waiting for me to come home.\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n I covered my face.<\/p>\n She had known.<\/p>\n Not that she would definitely die.<\/p>\n But that there was a possibility.<\/p>\n And she had wanted to leave me something that would outlast her.<\/p>\n I looked inside the wooden box again.<\/p>\n Under the photograph was a small brass key.<\/p>\n And beneath it was another note.<\/p>\n \u201cThis key is for the place Dad and I always talked about.\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n I immediately knew what she meant.<\/p>\n When Katie was little, we’d always talked about someday buying a little cabin near the lake.<\/p>\n Nothing fancy.<\/p>\n Just somewhere quiet.<\/p>\n She used to say we’d sit on the porch and watch the sunset when we were old.<\/p>\n I had forgotten about that dream.<\/p>\n Katie hadn’t.<\/p>\n The key belonged to a small storage unit across town.<\/p>\n The next morning, I drove there.<\/p>\n My hands trembled as I unlocked the door.<\/p>\n Inside was a collection of boxes.<\/p>\n Photographs.<\/p>\n Her childhood drawings.<\/p>\n My old fishing hat.<\/p>\n A stack of birthday cards I’d given her over the years.<\/p>\n And in the center was a folder.<\/p>\n I opened it.<\/p>\n There were documents for a small piece of land beside a lake.<\/p>\n Katie had been saving money for years.<\/p>\n She had purchased it months earlier.<\/p>\n The cabin hadn’t been built yet.<\/p>\n But she’d left enough money to finish it.<\/p>\n There was a handwritten note attached.<\/p>\n \u201cYou always said we’d build it someday. I figured someday shouldn’t wait forever.\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n I sat on the floor and cried.<\/p>\n My daughter hadn’t known exactly what the future held.<\/p>\n But she had known there were things worth leaving behind.<\/p>\n The cabin was finished several months later.<\/p>\n I kept Katie’s photograph on the porch.<\/p>\n Every year on her birthday, I sit there at sunset.<\/p>\n Sometimes I talk to her.<\/p>\n Sometimes I just listen to the wind.<\/p>\n And I finally understood why she had sent that package.<\/p>\n It wasn’t a goodbye.<\/p>\n It was her way of telling me that I was allowed to keep living.<\/p>\n Katie didn’t leave me an ordinary birthday present.<\/p>\n She left me a future.<\/p>\n The future we’d once dreamed about together.<\/p>\n And every time the sun goes down over that lake, I feel like my little girl is still keeping that promise.<\/p>\n My daughter Katie was my only child. 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